one more week

this post is for personal use only. if you hate complainers do not read on. if you've been there and felt my pain feel free to listen to how my first trimester has treated me!  i honestly did not expect pregnancy to be so harsh {i know, i know... just wait for what's coming} maybe i had too much of a positive attitude that it got me no where but the dumps. for any future first time mommies {or for myself for future babies} it's not as easy as it seems.. but, maybe you'll get lucky and it'll be a breeze. now.. don't get me wrong,  i am so unbelievably grateful for this little one and i most definitely wouldn't change anything for the world. but the whole "morning sickness" thing is a big fat lie. in fact it can be {and always is for me} morning, afternoon, oh and night time sickness. i kid you not, i feel nauseous 24/7. every second of the day. i only feel somewhat normal after i throw up for about... 30 seconds, then it's back to being sick.  oh. you & throwing up are the best of friends now.  when i was growing up {all the way until the present day} i have hated throwing up.  to the point where i would make sure that i didn't. at all. within the last  8+ weeks, i've thrown up more than i have in my entire life, times {hmmm, let's say} 30. i'm not lyin. i moan, all the time. hopin and prayin that my moaning will make everything better. my hubby is probably so sick of me by now. in the beginning, popsicles were the only things that kept me somewhat happy. now it's these darn mints, that really i just cant stand anymore. oh! and thank the heavens for keva juice!!! zofran never helped me, in fact it made things coming back up even harder to come back up.  i can't keep a prenatal vitamin down, good thing they have chewables. every smell makes me wanna barf, especially our apartment. i love my husband more than anything in this world, but... his body soap. and sometimes a certain way that i hold his hand makes me gag, so i hold his thumb.warm baths calm me down and i love hanging out at my grandma's house because it reminds me of my childhood. {it's very comforting} maybe i'm just being a baby.... i don't know, but the first trimester is very miserable. good thing we only have one more week left!!! whoo whooo!  you see, all these things are not fun at all.  but then you see your little one for the very first time ever, and it gives you hope.  there is our little baby egg. {now 12 weeks} we even heard the heart beat which made my heart skip a beat. dave and i are beyond excited to meet this little one.
{thanks for letting me get this off my chest} come visit again!!