baby body talk>>

 {above: just a few months before getting pregnant}

{left to right: 5 weeks; 16-17 weeks; 21 weeks; 28 weeks}

i need to get this off my chest so that if for some ODD reason down the road, the hubs and i decide to have another child, i can remember my thoughts. :)

i knew from the very beginning that i would have a very hard time with the gaining weight part of the pregnancy, but knew that it was extremely important to help grow a healthy baby. and trust me, i still know that.  that's all that i want for our baby girl, is to be healthy.  but i didn't think i would have this hard of a time with the weight gain. it's been a struggle. and the further along i get, the worse it gets.

in the beginning i could hardly keep any food down.  for 17 whole weeks!!! instead of gaining weight in the first and part of second trimester, i lost a lot of weight.  once i started feeling better, and i could actually eat, it's like i have to be constantly eating or else i feel miserable. i've told my family, that i haven't actually "felt FULL" in soo long. 

this little baby bump, is really little.  i sometimes wonder if she's growing in there. ;) i'm gaining all the weight in all the areas except my stomach. lol. i am definitely getting chubby. and i'm definitely having a hard time with it mentally. i hate going places because i'm afraid all people are thinking about is how chubby i've got.  i'm very self conscience.

at my last appointment 3 weeks ago, i had gained a total of 22 pounds so far. that was 3 weeks ago and i have 11 weeks left.  i know that it's only going to increase.

i definitely don't wanna watch too terribly much what i eat, i know this baby needs it.  and i wish i had the energy to go exercise everyday. {i can hardly get out of bed everyday}

any of you mom's out there have any advice for me? how did you get through it mentally?